There are actually two things which have induced me to get my hate on, and one of them I consider a staple so getting up in arms about it isn't anything new for me. The other one? Well, the other one is more due to a series of unfortunate events outside of my control yet which are still infuriating. Let's start with number two because it eventually gets around to number one.
I'm sure most of you remember the psychotic problems that the husband and I had with our computers this past winter and spring. I decided it was time to upgrade Uriel by building a new computer, and the husband followed suit replacing Staid with Knave. I did my usual "back every damned thing up on CD" thing with Uriel so that I wouldn't lose anything when we wiped the hard drive for the new OS and hardware. Not long after getting Brannagh up and running, the hard drive died mercilessly, which was, I suppose, not a major loss because I hadn't had a lot of time to accumulate documents, pictures, games, and whatnots on there for very long. After getting the new hard drive up and running, the processor died and I was left without a computer for some time until we got Buster who really only has a collection of comics and some homework but no major documents (i.e., my story or poetry) to speak of. So, the processor gets back, I'm up and running with Brannagh again and her network card died so that I couldn't access the network (i.e., our server Brigid) or the internet. Dippy.
This whole thing spans months so that my desk has had the chance to be covered, uncovered, re-covered, recovered, covered some more, discovered again, and finally just hexed with my undying hate for my own messes. I recently came across my desk again (having organized it) and decided that I wanted to work on my novel some. Nothing major, just wanted to type up some more of the story. Well, as it has been months since I last worked on it (as is seen at the bottom of Chapter 8 since October), it wouldn't be on either new computer but on a CD since the computers have put me through so much hell since then.
Now, I may not be the most organized person. Some might even say I'm the least organized person they know. However, when it comes to making back-up disks of my documents, pictures, etc., I am anal retentive beyond repair and write not only what's on the CD but also the date I burned it using a Sharpee so that it is indelible. What happens to the CDs once they're scorched with the trappings of my computer? Usually, they end up on a spindle or in one of those binder thingies so I can keep them localized. When I went to find my story, I went for the most recent back-up of Uriel before he was switched over to Brannagh. I found a CD from 2005 with my SIMS saves and another from the same year with other game saves, and that's it. The most recent back-up of my documents is from August 2004, before I updated the novel. Now I start getting my hate-on real bad not only for the computers and the fact that I've had so many problems with them and they're causing only more, but that familiar self-loathing comes back as I think about how cluttered my life is and how retarded I am on a regular basis.
Do I still have the paper copies of my novel and my notes? Sure. Couldn't I just copy over the last chapter from the webpage so I don't have to re-type the whole thing? With some editing, yeah, that's possible. Am I still royally pissed off at the idea that maybe, just maybe I've lost some notes which were typed onto the computer instead of being written out first or that my editing and formatting are all gone? Hell yes. I fucking piss me off because I can't keep track of a simple CD and because I can't keep my desk neat, and I piss myself off more because I acutally sometimes listen to people who say "Why do you write it all out longhand? Why not type it into the computer since that's where it's going anyway?" THIS IS FUCKING WHY MY NOVEL IS WRITTEN IN A FUCKING PAPER NOTEBOOK, and I'll fucking tear the next person's head off who suggests that I go straight to the computer to type up the rest of it instead of writing it out longhand first. This shit fucking irritates the piss outta me, and I'm not gonna listen to "Oh, then make copies on the server in addition to the CDs" because the fucking goddamned server doesn't even have the 2004 copies, only the 2003 copies which is seven chapters shy. And then what happens when the server goes down? What about my jumpdrive? Keep it there? What if it up and dies like Ian's did a while back? @#$%^&* computers!
So now you see why I've got my hate on today and why I'm going to fucking read a goddamned book today at work rather than work on my novel. Fuck this shit. The irony is that I'm using a @#$%^&* computer to bitch about all this.
I'm there too:
Don't get me started about misplacing things and not saving properly. I'm always doing that shit. Just ask me where the remote for my tv or dvd player is, then watch the magic as my face turns red and I start cussing as I tromp from room to room wondering where the hell I put it only to find it was right in front of my face where I was sitting.
Sorry dear:
But your last line has me laughing my ass off. I could be nice and say "it'll turn up" but it probably won't. Your long hand written novels are probably the way to go. Just don't bash your computers into too many little pieces, it would be a bitch to clean up.
Technology Curse of the Ringwald Women Strikes Again…:
Have you considered a chisle and stone tablets.
I'm dangerous enough:
I think that giving me a chisel would result in me accidentally removing a few fingers. I'm rather clumsy, lol.