At some point I need to get my life back on track. Then again, I don’t know that my life has ever really traveled along one track, ever. At the moment, I think I simply have too much going on in my head and not enough of it getting out and organized or done. I mean, yeah, it’s great I focused on doing th Etsy stuff for a brief period, but there’s a lot of directions I want to take that which leaves me mentally wandering down many paths. Currently, I just have crocheted items up, but I’d also like to include dream catchers, counted cross stitch designs, homemade beads and notions, as well as some woodworking items. See? Scattered.

Even before the Etsy mess, my brain was all over the place working on half a dozen blankets and such for family members. I’d bounce from blanket to blanket, doing a few rows here, a few rows there, and finally getting a couple done, but there’s three I have started and not finished so far. Last night I decided that since I’d finished the X-files, I’d watch these DVDs I’d picked up on sea battles during World War II and work on Katie’s blanket at the same time. I’d gotten about ten rows done when I stopped to look at the pattern, discovering that seventeen rows back, I’d messed up a stitch. Most of the time, I wouldn’t worry about one stitch but this was on the edge and was going to mess up the border, so I spent nearly an hour frogging seventeen rows of work. The problem? It’s likely I had been working on it late after finishing antoher project but not being finished with an episode of the X-files, so I stayed up to do a couple rows while watching TV only to have so little concentration as to mess up like that. Scatter-brained.

I haven’t even been able to focus on one objective in WoW either. It’s one of the reasons why I haven’t played it in about a week. I’d log on, check my character’s mail for failed auctions or stuff I’d sent between them, maybe do a few daily quests with my level 70 pally, but otherwise just putz around and do nothing consctructive. Ian gets specific goals in mind such as “find a group to go to this place so I can get this item” or even just “get enough money to buy this item” so he has some purpose for logging on most of the time. Of course, he has been growing more disenchanted with the game lately as well, but at least he seems to accomplish something when he’s on-line.

I even began this summer in a sort of scattered state. I worked quite a bit on my project to create a textbook and workbook for incorporating lots of pronunciation exercises in the French classroom only to vector off to working on my novels only to tangent off again to writing comics and after that onto who knows what. I haven’t stopped thinking about the workbook idea and still jot down notes and come up with new ideas. I haven’t stopped working on my novels and have been getting a lot of help with the second one from Miller, Lushbaugh, and Ian. I just haven’t been focused enough on any one of my creative writing projects to take it to completion. There are words there; they’re just all over the place.

So my brain is torn between all of these things: projects for Etsy, projects for family, WoW, non-fiction writing, fiction writing, drawing–not to mention all the cleaning and organizing I’d like to finish around the house like combining and straigtening all my crafts stuff, cleaning out and organizing the file cabinets, categorizing all the books again, and even just cleaning up the living room enough to vacuum. See? Scattered. Extrememly scattered. I’ve always been like this though, and I can’t say that it’s ever going to get better, but I often try to focus for a little while or remain focused once something has my attention. I still need to get around to making myself a T-shirt that reads “Easily Distracted.” Haven’t gotten around to that yet, either.