Random thoughts before I go dive into my thesis: I can’t remember what it’s like to not have arthritis. I don’t know what it’s like to walk down several flights of stairs without thinking about the way it makes my kneecaps feel. I don’t know anymore what days without at least some minor aching are. I can’t remember the last time I didn’t have to think about my joints before starting a physical activity like yoga or moving or cleaning. There aren’t days when something like my back, shoulder, hips, elbows, wrists or hands doesn’t pinch or pull or pain me. It’s scary, but I don’t know what it’s like to not have arthritis. It must be a very strange feeling to not constantly be aware of your body and how it moves. How very strange indeed.